Day One of the New Job

I finally have a new temporary full-time job. It’s temp for a couple months and then the company will assess my progress and decide whether to add me on permanently. I only worked a half day today, but tomorrow will be the real she-bang, 8-5pm. I’m pretty excited. I’m working at an advertising company and working in the design department, helping out as an assistant to several people. I don’t even have a title yet! LOL I just realized that. The position was sort of “manufactured” for me through a friend of mine who works there. They are using me as temporary glue to help out with several projects and then will decide if and how to include me on for real. So far so good, but I can tell it will be a high octane position! Everyone I met is fully loaded project-wise and ready to burst. I will act as bomb diffuser, technical assistant, graphic designer, etc. It should be interesting and different every day I’m sure. So, there you go. Gargabelle is engaged in the corporate world once again.

ps… I haven’t even told my parents or most friends yet. I’m kinda waiting to finish out the week and make sure everything is on track before I go and blab the good news. Don’t want to jinx it! Wish me luck!

Slitty Slitty Bang Bang

That’s my tongue in cheek reference to suicide. It just popped out of my mouth one night when I was talking to my roommate. I was telling him how sad I’d been all day and thinking the worst thoughts and I made an impromptu double wrist slitting gesture and then pointing a gun at my head gesture while those words sprang from my mouth and I just had to laugh at myself. Even in times of sorrow I’m a complete goofball. lol

As a side note, I would like to assure everyone that I am NOT contemplating such acts and certainly don’t endorse them. The main thing that prevents me from committing such an act is my crazy belief that you don’t go to Heaven if you commit suicide. I know that’s debatable, but it keeps me from doing it. How horrible would it be to take your life, be an otherwise stellar human being, and to land a place in Hell amongst all the hardcore criminals? That would suck worse than any form of torture living out your life on earth could bring. Right?

I need a job – fast

I just received word from EDD that I do not qualify for further unemployment benefits, so I’m really starting to get nervous. I’m not even sure how I will cover my October rent. My friends keep sending me articles that say unemployment benefits are going to be extended to CA residents, but I haven’t received any good news from EDD themselves yet. The bill might still need to be voted on or something. I don’t know, but the panic button has been pushed! I’m scared.

The Dating Game

When I was a kid, I wanted to go on either the Dating Game or the Newlywed Game. It seemed so appealing to have only three dates to choose from, or to already be married. I’ve never liked the dating thing and honestly, it really creeps me out. I decided to put my mug up on a free online dating site, but so far the hits I’m getting are scary. The guys are either much older dad types, or pitbull hoarding gangbangers. One guy who wrote actually did prompt a response from me, much to my surprise. He said he’s plays ukulele with a group of friends, and well, how can I say no to that? The only ukulele players since Buster (that I know of) have been Don Ho and Adam Sandler. One mustn’t look a gift ukulele in the mouth. Ok, I need a better proverb, but you get my drift. He’s short and dark too, so maybe I can dress him up in little turn of the century outfits and a porkpie and… create my own Franken-Buster.  🙂  lol I would never do that!

So dating… why does it suck? Why is it so disheartening and yucky? I hate it. Why can’t my ideal mate just pop up out of the dirt and propose to me? Why can’t I kiss a frog? Why can’t I be happy being alone? Maybe that’s my answer right there. Just be happy being alone. I mean, I’ve done it for this long.

which niche

I went and saw Julie and Julia today with my mom. (a quick side note: Stanley Tucci, I love you!) I was definitely inspired to blog after watching it, but I’ve considered blogging for quite some time now. I guess today I just realized I ought to do it and stop pussy-footing around and maybe I’ll get a book deal out of it!

While that most likely won’t happen, I do hope to get some inspiration out of this. I am currently unemployed and unfocused. I need to figure out what to do with my life, and I’d like to figure it out sooner than later. To give you a general background of my abilities, my most recent position was working as a graphic designer. I most enjoy creating. I am extremely visual but I enjoy writing as well. I am horrible with basic math, but do great with abstract math like geometry and algebra. I’m left-handed and an Aries if you like calculating that sort of thing into the equation. (which I do!) I’m also a Metal dog in Chinese astrology.

When I did the Myers-Briggs personality type I was an INFP, which is introverted, intuitive, feeling and perceiving. Here’s a quick synopsis: INFPs, more than other iNtuitive Feeling types, are focused on making the world a better place for people. Their primary goal is to find out their meaning in life. What is their purpose? How can they best serve humanity in their lives? They are idealists and perfectionists, who drive themselves hard in their quest for achieving the goals they have identified for themselves.

Do you see my dilemma?! lol The description fits me perfectly. It’s like I’m afraid to follow any path in case it’s the wrong path. I know where NOT to go, but I can’t narrow down the where TO GO either. If you have any suggestions for me I am open to hearing your thoughts! Please… really… if you study human behavior or are a life coach or simply need a full-time graphic designer on your staff, hit me up!  🙂

Pop!

So here it is… my first blog and I’m a bit nervous. To let you know now, I over-use ellipses, I am very shy about sharing my thoughts like this, online and semi-permanently, so please bear with me until my skin thickens. I love to write but I usually end up deleting, burning or shredding my words once they’ve hit the space outside my brain. I’m hoping to change this, so here I go… step one.